Got that stuck in your head now? Good. Me too.

I feel like this is one of those awkward moments where I was supposed to call but didn’t, and then I run into you in the grocery store and say “So…” while shuffling my feet.

So…

I’m being quiet right now. That’s the gist of it. I have a new project in the works that is going to change things up around here quite substantially, but I’m not pushing it.

I’ve discovered something about web strategy. First, it is so hard to be perfect at it when you’re a solopreneur. Either you have no clue what to do next, or you have too much to do next. Or you have an elaborate plan that would work if only you ran on batteries. Or jet fuel.

But unfortunately, we are not robots. We get sleepy, excited, overwhelmed, inspired, jealous, triumphant, and all of these other things that interfere with a well-run machine. I think that’s why 9 to 5 exists. I think that’s why corporate is so…corporate. When you take out the heart, things are much more predictable.

My gold-digging excursion left me people-shy. Me, the girl who loves performing, teaching, speaking, writing, and generally sharing with masses of people. I’m overwhelmed with the attention and interaction. I can’t explain it, but it’s there. And it hasn’t gone away yet, even though the excursion has been over for two weeks.

I generally share a lot around here. I share what’s made me successful, strategies that work, things to avoid. And those things are important. But I’m learning that being perfect in business can not only make you successful; it can also drive you crazy.

I’m hiring my first helper in a few days. Not just talking about it, but actually doing it. I’m focusing on filling my well instead of producing so much. Yes, I’m launching my new thing soon, but I’m not putting a date on it. And I’m actively ignoring the voices in my head that are telling me “You’re not communicating enough; you’re not building enough relationships; you’re not following your own freaking rules.”

They’re my rules. They’ve worked for me and countless others, but I’m not going to die if I break them for a month. Or even two. (Just keep telling yourself that, Sarah.)

Hopefully my people-block will be cleared soon. But even if it isn’t, I’ve learned a few very important things. First, hiring people is the only way to develop any kind of consistency without killing yourself to be perfect. Second, there is time. There is always time. So even if you have to do this alone, don’t dig those spurs in too deep. Your workhorse-self can only sprint for so long before you sputter to a stop.